I am soo

'Stupit!' I told myself as warning bells flashed in my face.

"I know you’re more then you appear." A very angry older female voice sounded in my ear. "In fact, I know that you are trained to use the force, you dirty filthy Sith."

'How!?' I asked myself as I quickly replied, "I mean Ms. Solo no harm. I just wish to tell her that the one she seeks has passed away a long time ago."

In truth, I was alive and well. I was just hoping that this person would take that for the truth.

"You lie, Sith." The female voice replied as my mind went back in time to another that did the same to me. After a few minutes it came to me in a flash. Erifia Apoc face and name raced across my mind as I pondered how would I get out of this person calling me something other then Sith. Just like I tried more times then I care to count on her calling me anything other then Bar.

The title Sith itself reminded me of a time and place that I had left behind. More to the point a place that had been my home and all the friends that I had lost over the years that had gone by. I was tried of hiding but I was fearful of those that didn't know whom I was really was a Jedi Knight and Jedi Healer of a forgotten time and place. All that knew me now as Jewel Doffee, Head healer of a children’s ward.

I hadn't used the name Barriss Offee in so long mostly because of the warning that was sent out years ago. That message that warned all to stay clear of Jedi Temple, and more to the point the feeling of Jedi dying in the hands of the clones that was in units with them.

"You Sith, are not welcomed here." The voice said as warning went off about would-be laser cannons that were aimed to my ship.

"Just tell her my message." I calmly said as I started to set a course to leave the area as quickly as possible.

My plan was if I couldn't give her the message in person then I would at least not allow these Sith to follow me back to where I'm now living. I knew that I would have to make sure to set course for a place that would lead them to void in space. I reminded myself that most of the software that I was using was so out of date as I was with use of my lightsaber.

Yavin 4

I approached Yavin 4 with a troubled mind and heart.

"Well," I said out loud as I sat back not ready or willing to go any further then I had already had traveled. I was ready to turn and run back to the only other home I've ever known.

A light flashed a warning of incoming transmittion. "Oh, force." I cried as I sat there shaking my head on my own silly mistake.

"Undetifend ship, please come in." A young male voice stated as a group of ships closed in on my ship. I sat there shaking my head as I reminded myself of how stupid I was to allow myself to be placed in a dog fight.

All the while in the back of my mind, I kept hearing a voice say from the past. 'This was always not one of your strong point.' I tried to figure out who's voice that was as I reached out with the force to see whom had placed me into this soon to be dog fight.


Then like lightening in a bottle, I was brought back to the present. I could feel force signatures. 'Younglings!' I told myself as I slowly replied "This is Jewell-Star. With a reply message to one named Jiana Solo." My real voice was masked by device that Anakin had made for my ship.

I could feel someone trying to use the force to pierce into my very soul to see who I really was. More to the point, why I was really here for.

Opps

I forgot all about this, how silly of me.

SORRY!!! So very sorry.

OK, look I know I'm suppose to be posting. (Thanks for the reminder Mr. Hutt!)

But things have just got out of hand in my real life. Sorry everyone. I'll try to post more offen. As for the rare comments I leave, I know I'm more of a ghost of my former self.

Sadly I wish to post more and with the help of a few other bloggers I may be able to. So with that I guess for now I'll work on that next post and have it ready by next week.

Whispers of the Past

I was taking a break from my work when I found this meme by someone named Jaina Solo. I had never heard the name before, and was sure that maybe she was trying to fool me.

I was once called Barriss Offee, but that was so long ago. Nearly a lifetime ago, and still someone knows that name. Maybe even knew me before the fall of the Jedi Order, but mostly likely not.

I nearly throw the meme away thinking that maybe it was for the best that this person not know I was alive. Then thought I'd go to where this Meme came from and tell her the person she is looking for died at the hands of the clone troopers.

It would be better that way, right?

'Yeah right!' I told myself as I left work and went to docking bay. A ship I had once used was still docked there waiting for me.

It took me three hours to ready my ship for departure. I shook my head as I looked out on the only other home I've ever had in a long time.

'I'll be back." I told myself as I left the planet behind me. I nearly got space sick from not flying in so long.

"I miss home." I moaned to myself as I started to track where the message had come from.

Slowly the computer came back with general location of Yavin 4. The only thing that was holding me back was thinking that this could be from a Dark Jedi or worse a Sith.

'Go Barriss go.' I barely heard over my own troubled thoughts. At first it didn't regester who's voice it was. Then it hit me, "Master?" I called out knowing that it was either a memory or really her voice I heard.

A single tear raced down my face as I programed a course for Yavin 4.

I didn't know what I was going to find when I got there or if I just sealed my own death in stone.

Let's see

Where was I???

Blinding light, I think?

Oh force, I don't remember or know anymore.

Anyone out there remember anything at all?

Reason for the Error Message

Hey Everyone

Yeah I know I posted an error message and here's why.

My uncle died due to a massive stroke on August 23. After much thought, I decided to first off write this blog in his memory. When he was alive, he was one of my most truest of readers. Reason for that are and will always be that he would hear my ideas out and second wait to see how I'd write them out in the storyline. He gave me ideas that I will be using but not right away, but will be soon.

Althought I miss him greatly now. Although I sit by myself right now crying over things that shouldn't have come to be. I can still hear him telling me to post.

So if you all would please give me some time, I will post again. This may not be the same Barriss most have come to know or remember but never fear for that path leads to the darkside.

Auther